Ego Boost

Here is a collection of everything I've done in the past 8 months. Because this is my blog and I get to brag about all the things I've done.

Knitting Arm Warmers

Birthday Hair!

New girls in JADED

I learned how to use this

Mirrors

My first Looping Performance

Bedroom Art

Made a stone path

knit a super chunky scarf

#igrewthis

#igrewthis

mowed my first lawn

Art IRL

homemade pickles

reformatted bedroom

better bathroom storage

NEW LAUNDRY UNITS

Sang for Bernadette Peters

Built these

Got good at staining wood 

Built that too

Compost Pile

Relocated plants

Ate so many tomatoes
I may have acid reflux now

Made friends with that guy

#igrewthis

Had a job interview at the
Monterey Bay Aquarium

Built a bookshelf with
my family

Not dead Love Pear

Directed/Produced
Home Free Music Video

New Couch

Photos IRL

relocated plants

Five More Days

Let's end this on a positive note shall we?


I'm very excited for Jeston to come home this weekend.

It's been a long 8 months and I am so proud of him for doing so well at his job. His entire company has praised his hard work and are looking forward to his return. I am proud of him.

I look forward to seeing him each morning. I look forward to holding his hand in the car and wrapping my arms around him pretty much anywhere I can imagine.

I am very excited for Jeston to come home this weekend.


It's still a possibility that he may get the Duke job, the position is still open and he still hasn't gotten confirmation for his second interview. And I recently was contacted about my application to join the Center for Instructional Technology at Duke University. It would be a great step towards my Ph.D, towards a career as a leader in educational reform.

I look forward to making more money. To be able to make larger strides to getting out of student loan debt. To finish remodeling our home.


I am very excited for the future.


2015 is going to be good. My mom and I are already planning our trip for next year. Peru, I think. If Jeston sticks to the Carnival job in March, I hope that I can join him for a cruise for my birthday next year. I think I want to spend some time next holiday season in Lebanon, if the political drama settles with ISIS. I hope that I knit enough items to be able to sell something at a farmer's market next fall. I'm planning on Jaded taking stronger strides towards performing and EBoard to release a single or two.

I am very excited for the future.

I am very excited for Jeston to come home.

<.Deep Breath.> Five. More. Days.

Ten More Days

In ten more days, Jeston will be home.

November

I am. Unsure. Uneasy. Underwhelmed. And under a little pressure.


Did I accomplish my goal of remodeling the house? Was I successful at being able to handle a long distance relationship? Am I happy that soon I will be with him again?

unsure

I've had a lot of odd feelings this month surrounding Jeston's return. And the majority of them have nothing to do with Jeston, or even his return. They all surround the stuff that comes after. The part where we get to go on vacation together...in a cold climate (ugh...more cold weather). The part where we get to live together in a home again...but only a few months (4 months together). And then the part where he gets to leave again...for another 8 months...on the west coast of the US...where it will be harder for us to be together...again.


uneasy

Yellow Chunky Scarf for KLo!

It's difficult. Because I want nothing more than to be happy he is coming home. I want nothing more to look forward to holding his hand and watching TV on the couch with him and writing music and eating foods and sleeping together. I want nothing more to feel good about all those things.


But there is this unsettling cloud just a few feet behind me that's overshadowing all those good feelings. I just wish there was a way to chase it away. Tell it to come back in 10 days. When I don't have to face these feelings alone, but with him. Because honestly, I've done a great job at taking care of myself these past 8 months. I'd really like it if I could work with a team.


This isn't the most positive blog update. But that happens in life. Un-positive days. Most of the time days like these go hand in hand with the conversation..."well, what are you going to do about it? how are you going to fix it?"

....

I would rather not face that conversation alone right now. I'm afraid that the outcome would be unappealing. And that would be unfair to Jeston, me and our relationship. And it's just 10 days.




Needless to say. The next ten days will be hard. So here are some photos to distract you...and me.

Stone pathway is looking better

Brussel Sprouts & Beets!

I grew a carrot!